C#
I've been feeling suicidal and if I need remind you
                        F#
It's not becoming of my heart and my brain
      G#
I was thinking about how great it would be
                    F#
If I could make the tightness in my chest go away


[Verse]
            C#                                                       G# F#
It's been a while since I've seen God and I'm not trying to lead him on
                          G#                                 F#
But he's always trying to fuck me to the tune of my favorite song


[Chorus]
F#                       G#
And they're playing the 59th sound in heaven
                      F#
While the angels were drinking up whiskey and cokes
     G#
It's hard to freeze your anxieties
         F#                                C#
When your best friends torching your coat, your coat


[Instrumental]
C# G# F# C# F# G# F# A#m x2


[Verse]
C#
Drop that phone, drink a glass of water
C#
And call me when you get in your bed
     G#              
I've seen inside your head and I'm doing
    C#                                        
The surgery on the parts that still wish you were dead


[Bridge 1]
C#                        A#m                    G#
'Cause I've lost too many friends so I'll say it again
                                  C#
And again and again and again and again and again and again and again


[Bridge 2]
G#                                      F#
I'm not trying to say it's easy but I'm trying to say it's fine
     G#                        C#                               F#
I've still got your demons and they're not gonna be leaving any time
F#       C#
Any time soon
F#       C#
Any time soon
F#       C#
Any time soon
F#       C#   A A#m G#
Any time soon
G#                                  D#                          F# C# A
I'm not trying to say it's easy but I'm trying to say it's fine

[Outro]
Fm 
Since I was thirteen I've dealt with manic depression and I had a difficult time
Fm                       D#
comprehending the things that I wanted to be and I lived
D# 
a very happy life and I was turning eighteen and I was doing
D#                    Fm
everything I could to try to make myself feel better but I felt an absence,
Fm                                                           F#
I felt like I needed to die, I felt like nothing existed and I felt that I wasn't
F#
worthwhile to be breathing the same air as the ones I loved and my family, and then it
F#          Bbm 
came to the point where I started losing friends who had the same fucking ideas as
Bbm                                          A
myself but I have to be strong and I have to live my life as a continuation of theirs
A                                      D#
lost and I have to do everything in my fucking power to be the person that I can be
D#                                                             
and live my life the best way I fucking can and some days it's
F#                                                               C#            G#
so hard to fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand